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A silly idea for sending a secure message on a Minecraft server ▣-▣-▣-▣-▣-▣-▣

Some servers may have problematic administration. I want to prevent certain users from communicating with each other, even outside the server.

The most logical thing to do in this kind of situation would be to use another platform to communicate, such as Discord, Telegram, etc. It's a good idea, but if you don't want people to find out about your social media accounts, throwaway accounts can be useful.

If the previous two approaches didn't interest you, here's a third one: one-time links and passwords.

Instances of privatebin [https://privatebin.info/directory/] are helpful. They allow you to send messages that can only be accessed once. This way, you can send a password [https://bitwarden.com/password-generator/], and if a staff member intercepts the link, the person you want to talk to won’t be able to access the content, and you’ll know you’re being spied on. If the staff gets the password, just generate a new one and try sending it again.

If the message isn't intercepted, your target contact will receive the password. If they receive the password, send another text—this time, a secure one using the same password they received.

I suggest sharing the link via written books (Here's a tip: don't sign the book—that way it's easier to copy the link), or shortening them and posting them on signs.

The only downside to this method is that if someone with a lot of power on the server impersonates your friend—acting like a skinwalker by mimicking them (same skin and nickname, maybe even the way they talk)—then playing on that server is like living on the edge.

You can do that by sending a link from https://hack.chat/ or https://www.leapchat.org in the password-protected message. Browser-based temporary chat services.

For voice calls, use an instance of Jitsi [such as https://meet.nadeko.net/] or Briefing [https://brie.fi/ng].

Please consider using XMPP. I don't use it myself—since I don't have anyone to use it with—but I like to spread the word.

The Alonerooms

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• Infinite places that could exist. Places that seem normal.

• Anti-phobia: No one’s phobias will exist in this place.

• Danger-free: No creatures, only solitude.

• Immortality: The being does not age or die from natural or unnatural causes. Their presence in this place is eternal.

• Organized: The environments and locations are always, or almost always, in good condition. They appear to be functioning normally, yet without anyone maintaining them.

(･ω･)つ ──────────── ⊂(･ω･)

I based it on Backrooms, but without the monsters or the surreal elements. Just imagine being alone in a quiet, tidy place, almost as if the place were all yours. Castles, mansions, buildings, shops—everything always running smoothly, everything always spotless, everything intact, because there’s nothing living to disrupt it.

You could try to destroy a house or set a forest on fire, but after a night’s sleep, everything would return to a state of perfection. 𓆣

How long could you stay there? ∞

Goblin: You're up! You need to feed me!! I'm starving!! Me: Ugh, [Partner] created a monster. You have food in your bowl, you're not starving. Goblin: But I want the goooood stuff!! It's been sooooo long. It's been nothing but dry kibble for ages!! Me: You had half a can last night. You'll be fine. Let me shower. Goblin: proceeds to gnaw on vinyl blinds

Fragments of me everywhere, confusion to create, no blog entries.

To create an anonymous persona, you don't need much. Here's the list:

• An email address (optional): I suggest z.org, pissmail.com, or cock.li;
• A small webpage: rentry.co, fluffle.cc, or repris.org should do the trick;
• A means of contact, such as email or XMPP, has to be something simple.

On the page, you can add any information you want, a cool avatar image, and your contact details. Now just be out there, put your web page in your bio/description wherever you are, and you're done.

Tips/ideas: put the link on your profile on any forums you participate in; put it on a sign inside your land on a Minecraft server; something like that...

I'm changing the theme here. Here's my old theme, if you want to use it: https://cryptostorm.is/paste/?fe10542698c2ed56#5w2zpFuz3tnm1N7Er2tY5PVCEnyTWKE6VYcx9L6vq6xk

oh yes.

written 2025-07-04 re-posted 2026-03-14

i've been reflecting on the concept of expectation lately. i've been hurt by my expectations in the past many times, and lately i've been discovering that i'm being hurt by them still. what i mean by “expectation” includes the regular expectations and whatnot, the kind that are sometimes not met, causing disappointment; i'm also talking about expectations that something or someone might respond to my actions or words in a particular way, or that they might respond at all; i also mean the expectations that one places upon oneself, the kind that tell me i don't have some skill or ability.

i think All expectation is harmful! i think that expectation (in this sort of very general sense) is very similar to the process of taking something for granted, of assuming something to be inherent or fundamental. i think that All such assumptions are harmful and false. when one expects nothing, everything is a blessing.

this doesn't mean expecting (and/or accepting) neglect or ignorance or any such thing. these, too, should be dealt with as they come. living without expectation means taking one's matters into one's own hands; expect no deus ex machina. there is no way that the world Should be; see things as they are, uncontaminated by expectation and assumption.

i also have been thinking about the phrase, “it's supposed to be good,” lately. what does this phrase Actually mean? does it mean, “i expect to enjoy this, and i will be disappointed otherwise”? when i've said it in the past, i assumed it went no deeper than, “this has a reputation for being good,” but i Always had other assumptions — assumptions like, “i will enjoy this,” and, “not enjoying this popular thing makes me an outlier,” and, “there is shame in being an outlier.” remember this: assumptions are built on assumptions; expectations are built on expectations.

why should i even take others' enjoyment of a Thing into consideration at all? i will never truly enjoy a Thing for as long as i am comparing my experience to those of others, for i will be focusing on the comparison rather than the Thing. i do not have to agree or disagree with popular opinion; there is a middle way, free from the expectation of agreement or disagreement.

anyway, this all comes from me wanting to Slow Down and not really feeling able to. turns out, going slow is actually kinda counter-cultural in our glorious regime, long live the upper class. slowing down is how one Sees, and it would be really bad if people could just See like that. we might have a fucking revolution on our hands or something. good thing.

much love, ~esper

written 2025-06-27 re-posted 2026-03-14

i went for another lil adventure today! this one wasn't nearly as adventurous cause i was a bit in need of rest, lol. i found a nice spot not far from my place and then sat there for a while!!!

this was inspired by my looking through landscape photos earlier today. i realized i needed a PC wallpaper, and lo, i realized i needed a backdrop to my life. i need beautiful vistas in my life!!! there's some nice shit in the world. i want to look at it!!!!! yes i live in a shitty how could you tell

s/shitty/city

anyway, i'm out to walk with a friend now!! here's to more moments of adventure ;)

with love, ~esper

written 2025-06-26 re-posted 2026-03-14

i've been feeling kinda down lately, so yesterday i went on a little adventure around town! i don't often go out on my own, but it was a lot of fun! i'm gonna have to do this sorta thing more often.

i did some walkin and i did some lookin. i went for lunch (after taking way too long to find a cute place to eat xp ) and then stopped at a cafe on the way home to read!!! that's another thing i intend to bring back: reading for fun. like every other audhd (read: heavily traumatized) trans woman, i too miss the book-filled sunny afternoons of my youth.

anyhoo, i didn't even plan to go out for so long. i kinda just took some water and some weed and went exploring! i'm happy to have taken the opportunity to really make it Mean something. :)) so yeah i did a lot of thinkin on my adventure. a lotta reflecting and such. my trauma-healing has been pretty intense lately!, like it feels very “my traumas are laid bare and raw before me” type deal. if ur pickin up what i'm spittin up.

i've started to read sci-fi again! i used to really enjoy the thoughtfulness that went into the elaborate stories and world-building, and i want to learn to enjoy it again in books!!! i've been having no trouble enjoying tv & movies lately, but it's getting weirdly difficult to find shit that Isn't just horribly violent or misogynistic or imperialistic or whatever. no; the real issue is that the tv & movies i've learned to enjoy have Always had these issues, and i can only now see them.

i was about to start ranting about how film is a bad indie medium. what??? no it isn't. indie films are great; i just don't know where to find them!! if You know of any fun pieces of film media...... my contact info is on my homepage ;)

i think what i Meant to rant about was the relative accessibility of literature and words (books, etc) as an artistic medium. there's no big production team or whatever. just regular old Author and Editor puttin letters together for a while. come to think of it, i think i might just be into text generally! no wonder text-based terminal-style computer-use is so appealing to me!! text is such a versatile and accessible medium!!!!

ok i'm gonna go play some vidya games now. until next time...! ~esper

a valley in the dark above, below stars the milky way, a river reflected in the river the water, always flowing inky in the moonlight & teal in the sun

orange aspen viridian spruce in which squirrels and magpies sing and dance

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